Hello life is the epitome of the 3S, shit stress professor Snape like srsly. I've been so caught up in shit and its so stressful and I'm addicted to harry potter.

Well so many things have happened and I'm really disappointed in myself I'm so sick of this i tell you. Midyears are tomorrow and i feel so terribly unprepared and I have no one to blame but myself, I mean i've been trying. I know it doesn't mean much to some people but it means quite a bit to me i don't know, peer pressure, parental tutors expectations to meet and my own's. I don't know i feel so freaking freaked out and annoyed, it's like I've got no more heart for emotional conflicts anymore I'm completely pretty much numbed to everything you've been doing or saying i don't know, I'm like souless wtf am I talking about i'm no Voldemort luh.

Conflicts between the few of us again but I'll be discreet here I just hope it'll blow over soon and you know who you are, we still love you very much and i can't do without you as a friend, please be okay soon.

Well my weekends couldn't be better, kaleidascope with Tanny Lizard Marisse and Jens the girls on stage did really well, good on you guys! Grapevined after that with a whole buncha people, celebrated Zoe's sweet sixteen happy birthday darling, talked to Caro and Yy or rather bitched I don't know whatever suits the mood haha then cabbed home.

Woke up at 7am and Caro picked me in a cab. Miked didn't work during the workout but it was really funny watching the MPs do the work out, had breakfast with her and played at toys r us then I went home and slept through the afternoon. Had dinner at Ry's house and we spamsed until died. Did a little math here and there and prankcalled insanely i love you girl you make me happy. :)

Monday school was alright i guess. Abs came over after school and we did Chem with pizza really good then conferenced and then talked to Chai for hours really good talk, i love you girl. Today I had endless tuition i might have died from tuition overdose. Went to the doc's, wasn't feeling very well and got the cutest pair of white loafers! I'm overjoyed heh well photos in the next post then. I'm kinda tired now. It's alarming how loud the silence screams, I believe in you as much as I believe in ghosts.

I need you and we both know it. Please don't be a failure and end up breaking what you've already taken away.

"I want you so much."
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